The dot at the end of the sentence

You know where this is going. For most of us it is every month, for so many years. For me it is that way now... but it was not always like that.

Allow me to digress. When I was a teenager, I never had a regular cycle. It did not seem to be a problem. I always felt I was thyroid imbalanced, but it was always borderline - and not a concern. Fast forward to trying to make a baby. Suddenly a large problem was the fact that I did not have a regular cycle and probably did not ovulate, and oh yes, you can't expect to get pregnant and carry a pregnancy if your thyroid is not in balance. Many, many years later and a lot of commitment, of time, money and to my marriage and family, I am lucky enough to have the millionaire's family: my girl and boy.

Back to the present. I get regular periods. I ovulate. I PMS when I ovulate until I get my period. This started just before I got pregnant the first time. I changed my diet and cut out the starchy carbs and the sugar. I have always wanted to write about my experience because it was life changing. We decided to follow the Suzanne Somers' Somersizing regime. It was on a whim. My father-in-law was doing it and I thought we had nothing to lose. It was the year 2000. It was about the time that unexplained infertility was correlated to PCOs and insulin resistance. I has read that several drugs were countering the insulin issue. I wanted to bring that to my doctor and see what he had to say. In the meantime, we ate how much we wanted, whenever we wanted with Somersizing. Within the first month of following the concept of separating your carbs from your fats and proteins - and eliminate the simple carbs - like potatoes, white bread and such, I had regular cycles for the first time ever!

It took a few months to drop the weight and fat that I never could. Finally, we went to the doctor. He said my diet had done everything that the meds could do. He gave us one last chance. We were all amazed at the results. The eggs were great. That was always the problem. The eggs were not so great. This is where I wonder how much of this science the doctors can predict. If my eggs were so bad, and women's eggs age and get worse as you age - how did I have these great eggs? In any case, I was pregnant! The second pregnancy happened so quick and easily. I barely had time to breathe between them.

So babies done. Here I am with the regular cycles that evaded me when I needed them. What do they do for me now? They tell me a lot. They tell me that for all of those years when I had a sciatica attack - it was because I ovulate. They tell me every time my moods go off the wall - it is the time from ovulation to my period. That knowledge would have helped me a long time ago. Does it help me control anything now? Not yet, but at least I know why, and I try to move past it.

Today is tough. I got my period and although it is a sense of relief because I know I am on the upswing, it is still rough. I hope tomorrow is a better day. Yes, I have my family - and this is all worth it.